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[30 Dec 2002|03:18pm] |
But I'm growing up. I look at myself a year ago and it's shocking how much I've changed. A lot of me is still the same, of course, but these past twelve months have changed me considerably.
I had just entered the party scene. I thought I was a real "raver", but I didn't fully comprehend the idea. I was a newbie- a cute PLURry little newbie. I ran around with my candie bracelets, passing them out to anyone that even looked in my direction. Daniel told me that ravers had binkies, so I got one, even though I never rolled, just 'cause I wanted to fit in. I didn't really understand that it's not about fitting in or standing out- it's about being who you are. I was just desperate to be a part of something.
Luckily, I had chosen something really good for me and although it took me a good eight or nine months to outgrow my 'newbie' stage (that was only a few parties though), I finally started to understand. I don't really preach PLUR anymore, although I probably embrace it more than I did before.
The way I interact with people is different too. My life isn't just about parties and cool lights and loud music. I'm a person, not just a partykid. I withdrew from close friends, but perhaps it was for the best. In some cases, it wasn't my choice- they dropped me, but I do believe that I am a better person because of their presence. Granted, I took a lot of emotional abuse, but in the end, I am stronger and wiser.
I'm still not sure what I want to do with my life. Until recently, I thought I wanted to be a radio talk show host. Now, maybe do some party promoting... although I'm pretty sure that won't pay my bills... I have a lot to learn. I'm not done growing up; I'm just observing the growth in the past year...
I have new friends now. I'm not as close with them as I was with my old ones. They're different, but still really fun, interesting people. I think perhaps I'm a bit afraid to care too much. There's a happy balance somewhere out there. Over-caring is just as painful as not caring enough, but it took learning that the hard way to make me realize that.
Sometimes, you have to learn things the hard way.
The one thing I wish someone could have taught me before I went through all the emotional teenage drama of the past year was that you need to love people for who they are- not for their potential- because they can never live up to what you build up in your head and you're setting yourself up for immeasurable pain. It's holding them up to impossible standards and that's not fair to them or you. Encourage them to follow their hearts and be the best they can be, but remember that you cannot control destiny or other people, so don't even try. Control yourself and do the best that you can do and everyone and everything else will turn out the way the will...
All this rambling does have a point. Since I have changed, so has my LiveJournal name. I am no longer  plur_kid. That was who I was a year ago.
Next stage: missevilkat
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[29 Dec 2002|02:11pm] |
Last night I had a dream that Scott came home, but he looked wayyy different- taller (if that's even possible) with natural red hair and he was really skinny. It didn't really look like him at all, but I knew it was him and it was weird.
Also, I was in the locker room and for the life of me, I couldn't remember my damn locker combo, but then I got it eventually. Weird.
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| Free Bass Pictures |
[27 Dec 2002|03:01pm] |
Mike-EEE and Chef Odie!
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| Merry Christmas!!! |
[25 Dec 2002|12:37pm] |
First of all, I noticed that the cute picture of Patrick and me and unfortuntately dropped out of the top ten on Raveshack. *Sadness* Since it's my absolute favorite, I am determinded to get it back up there. Chris (sparkle_boi) and Donald Glaude bumped us, so I guess it could be worse, but here is the link to Patrick and me. Click on it and I will love you forever:
http://raveshack.com/photos/?viewsrc=1&id=5336
Anyway, in other news, Alisha (67mustang_girl) sent me an adorable e-card and I loved it. It was super cute.
Last night, I hung out with Alisha, Zach and Pago. We went to the smoke shop and the dollar store. I don't think she likes them very much 'cause they talk about drugs all the time. I told them I'd smoke with them if Alisha would do it (although I don't think she will). I'm very sorry if I peer-pressured her into anything. She's a sweet girl. After we dropped her off, we went to Shari's. I came home and we opened a couple of presents. Grandma and Ray sent me a check for $25 and my parents got me a boxed set of Love Spell from Victoria's Secret. Mmmm.
I went over to Zach's house around nine. Tyler and him were chiefing, but I didn't hit it. We chilled in his room for awhile (he has the fucking coolest room ever!) until Myk came over. He was drunk (whatever) but he was driving, which made me so scared! *Shudders* It was his 18th birthday, so I guess him and Jeff and me will be hittin' all the 18+ parties now. We went to 7-11 (I drove, duh), then back to Zach's house, where he took a pill or two (real smart...). Zach's mom kicked us out around eleven, so we went over to Myk's house. His dad was hella drunk and just laying there in his tighty-whiteys. Ugh. He didn't even notice us come in. He was talking, but it was totally incoherant- just blasted. Ugh.
We played e-tard games in Myk's room, since Zach was rollin.' Pago took a couple of pills right before I left. God, I worry about them sometimes. I'm glad they never have it in my car though. *Wipes brow*
I miss Scott a lot! Who'd have guessed it? I freakin' adore that guy! He wants everyone to think he's some kind of badass juggalo, but he's the nicest guy I've ever met. We had bonding time on Friday, right before he left for Detroit (wut?!).
Today is Christmas, of course. I woke up around 10:30 and we opened presents. I got some cool stuff: A CD/MP3 player with a car adaptor, hot rollers, an eight pack of Red Bulls, a $100 gas card, lotto tickets (I didn't win yet), a $50 check, a cute little ornament and some candy and pretzels. Coolies. I love presents! Oink oink!
Laura got me some cool stuff the other day for my birthday and Christmas too! Let's see... she made me a snow globe with my name and cute little adjectives, Spongebob stationary, a Spongebob coloring book with a T-Shirt transfer and Warm Vanilla Sugar lotion and body wash! Yay! Me wubs her! I still need to finish her and Alisha's gifts!!! Yipes!
Mmm, parties are fast approaching! Yay!!!
Merry Christmas to everyone (especially surrealjungle)! You're the greatest!!!
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[24 Dec 2002|07:07pm] |
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*Giggles* Zach and Pago and me went to Shari's for dinner and Zach was dancing around with his lights and the really pretty waitress came by and was like, "Okay, Raver Boy!"
Ahahahaha! I win! He can never call me Raver again!!! Yay!!!
I've converted another one. I should take up a religion now...
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| DJ Skribble and Donald Glaude Party Pics |
[24 Dec 2002|12:30pm] |
Pago, Zach and me
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[22 Dec 2002|07:04pm] |
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This has been the WORST BIRTHDAY EVER!!! I was supposed to meet Damon
(leprechaun58) at the movies, but I was 15 minutes late. I hit two cars in the parking lot because the spots on the side were so tiny. I scraped the paint on one of them, so I left a note. I got a dent on my passenger side door and my mom flipped out. I hung around the movie theater until about 3:30, then left because I figured Damon had given up on me. Wrong again- he was just running late and I missed him. He hung around until 4:30, then left. I feel horrible for making him wait that long. This day sucks. No one even called me to say hi. The only good part was seeing this when I got on the computer:
At least someone said something...
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[22 Dec 2002|10:46am] |
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Today is my birthday... wow. I feel really old at eighteen...
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[18 Dec 2002|07:32pm] |
I kicked it with Scott, Tyler and Nikki for about an hour yesterday. Whoop, two days in a row! (Well, 'cept for Nikki- we just hung out yesterday) I like all of them. They're fun...
Today I went shopping and I got Scott and Zach the coolest Christmas presents! They're gonna love 'em so I'm happy. And I replaced my Ninja Turtles shirt. The one I have is getting so gross! Ewww, raver sweat.
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| Oops, I did it again... |
[16 Dec 2002|10:43pm] |
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Damn damn damn! My eyebrow rejected! Fuuuuck!
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| How much do I love these kids? So much! |
[16 Dec 2002|06:58pm] |
PussiCORE: PussiCORE: Katie is the greatest too!
MrBoNeZ ICP: katie is hella koo
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| It's official... I'm a DJ groupie! |
[15 Dec 2002|10:36pm] |
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Who am I talking to right now? Who? AJ "Spider" Sorbello! And he IMed me! And the other night... Victor (DJ WhistleR) IMed me! He's done it more than once! I am so stoked!!! The talent! Aaaah! I'm overwhelmed! *Passes out from excitement*
Also, I got to meet Flave (who introduced himself as Paul... wow, first name!), Miss Lisa and DJ Skribble! Wowies! I'm such a stalker...
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| "MAKE SOME FUCKIN' NOISE, SEATTLE!" |
[14 Dec 2002|03:08pm] |
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Awww, hell yeah!!!Last night was one of the best nights of my life!!! I'll write later, but the pics I took can be seen HERE!
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[12 Dec 2002|07:13pm] |
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I re-updated the ol' profile AGAIN. Check it out!
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[11 Dec 2002|10:23pm] |
Patrick called me today! Yay! I miss him so much! He's not coming up until the middle of next month, but I'm wayyy excited to see him!
Also, I re-updated the ol' profile... not too many changes, but a few. Anyway, onto the pictures!
Hey, there's Vanessa dancing on the stage!
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| "If you ever feel as if you have no rhythm; then place your hand upon your heart" |
[10 Dec 2002|10:26pm] |
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^^^Best quote ever. Madonna said it apparently, in the early 90's. I saw it in DJ Spider's profile.
Weird stuff has been goin' on lately. Today, I'm reading my PMs and I see this:
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Other than that, yesterday, I chizzilled with Scott and Amanda (euphoriabowl). They're both cool. Scott and I were talking. He's going to smoke with Amanda on Thursday. He says that he gets to know people better by smoking with them. I don't really understand, but he says it's 'cause I don't do it... Scott's so rad, but he'd be even cooler if he didn't do drugs and stuff.
Today, after PE, Erin and Beth got in a big screaming fight and Erin called Beth a chink. I'm pissed. I know they were shouting names back and fourth but why did she have to bring race into it? I'm friends with Erin, but I think she was sooo out of line. I'm gonna say something to her tomorrow.
I returned my books to the college. My mom gave me five bucks for gas money. I think it's 'cause she feels sorry for me for not having a job. I may get temporary work as a baby-sitter over the break. The family I'll be working for has two foster kids and apparently they're a bit rambunctious. They want me to start at seven in the morning! *Yawns* I guess sleep is for suckas!
That's all for now, but I have more to say later...
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